When too much is enough

when is enough? what is enough?
how do you know when you need to stop helping? to stop caring. Because after all the help and all the care, they just turned and stabbed you right in the heart and walked away and make it sound as if you are the one who is wrong instead.

it may seem silly to some why i will get so upset with school and my classmates sometimes.

but you forgot, it's not just school. The results are nothing.

It's the friendship you build with people while staying up late nights one after another, rushing reports, having meetings, joking around in class, laughing over lunch n dinner... just goofing around... seeing them almost every other day or at least once a week, you appreciates each other's hard work...

With many of you, this is how i built my friendship with you all too. It all started in school. How many of us have the chance to have friendship like this again after leaving poly or sec school. Not many.

So when they turn around and stab you. It bleeds.

You felt betrayed. You feel like you are being used. You feel terribly upset cos this may be the end of a friendship you built for 2 years. You feel like a fool tearing up while trying hard to finish the report cos they chose to desert you. After all the effort you put in to try to help with the project. All you get is a lousy phonecall, with a lousy "label" and a "loudspeaker".

Well, i'm just talking about one person here. But thinking back, not everyone is like C. the rest are appreciative and we thank each other for all our efforts. We know what we all do for each other, to help one another through school as we juggle work at the same time. Even if they didnt do much, at least we respect each other.

C says she is disappointed with me. I wonder what i did?? Because i am the one who is disappointed with her attitude here.

I dunno if i have the heart to talk to her in school tmrw. I thought about it the whole night, but its really just a stupid misunderstanding and she didnt even give me a chance to explain. Her reaction is just too crazy. I really dunno how to talk to her anymore cos i feel really hurt by her attitude. You dont talk to your good classmate of 2 years like that. You dont. Cos i didnt. And i wont.

We shall see how it goes tmrw....